An introvert overthinker

 Initially, when we start doing this particular thing we got highly motivated for, uk like making all those fake scenarios in our head what if we become like the best person doing that thing? Even before starting to do it we imagine things hell lot of times, even before knowing if we could do it successfully in a try Or it's gonna be a long journey.. All we think is about the after party the after success kinda thing and not about what the journey is gonna be about, and yea absolutely not about how we gonna start, implement our creative ideas or maybe be consistent with it. 

Even now when I'm penning this down all I'm thinking about what's outcome is gonna be like.. 

Talking about which makes me high with anxiety , like honestly even me, I never think about the ups and downs of the journey or maybe facing emotional crisis in my life. 

Just when I think yea this is what I want , that's when my boat takes a whirling turn and turn things different,.. Just when I get normal or deal with the situation.. And then knock knock.. Hello new problems waiting up for me.. Or may be it's me who's kinda more focused on my problems rather than finding a way out... Sometimes it gets so freaking difficult to deal with all the emotional breakouts I go through because there's no one I can open up and explain my situation, so that ik I have started dealing with it on my own. 

There are days where I am like shit may be I am the problem, the problem is me but someday I'm just like I'm the best! .. Probably I just need to focus on me my mental health and not about what's everyone else gonna think! 

If anyone out here is in the same position as me! 

Do talk to yourself!